A shout into the void

I feel like I'm going to literally snap in half. Ive been in a constant state of panic. Im tired of being treated like shit. I just wanna give up and not have to worry but i know I can't do that. I can't handle being called "she" and using girl spaces but I especially cant stand being called "it" abd a "shemale". I just wanna rip off my skin 99% of the time. I don't wanna deal with this. I don't want to fucking exist...but for whatever cruel reason i have to...